It’s early Monday morning, yet I’m still wide awake. Listening to music to calm thyself.
However, its failing. My goal for this shiny new year was to be more positive and to work own my innerself. So far, I have been doing okay. I had 2 days where I was
triggered into negativity. Although this month is almost over, I find myself fiddling around with my very own Pandora’s Box. I know that we’ve all have them. Yet some people don’t even touch theirs. You see, I don’t just have a box. I live in it. I’ve only got one matchstick that I’ve managed to flame. Managed to create some sort of light. However, there are days when my thoughts are going back to that place of darkness. Blowing towards my light. It’s easy to smile, tune things out, and turn emotions on/off .
“The sweet surrender of silence forces me to live alone
Locked and loaded, where the hell is peace of mind?
I wait on you inside the bottom of the deep blue sea
I wait on you inside the bottom of the deep blue.”
–Missio, The Bottom of the Deep Blue Sea
The first and second line of the second verse of this song describes my Pandora’s Box to the fullest. I’m surrounded by my family, yet I feel so alone. The thoughts that goes through my head sometimes are too much that I just need a break…from it all. I’m not saying this is what Missio meant in the lyrics, but simply what it means to me. My interpretation.
If you haven’t heard this song, I definitely recommend people to do so. The music is so melodious to me. I enjoy it, but it makes me sad [sometimes]. When I just focus on the music, I delve into my deep overly thinking state. A place that I hate visiting. My Pandora’s Box.