Often time, I think of myself as a multifacted person.
A book, whose words, are hidden with invisible ink.
I’m great at building walls.
Mental and emotional walls.
My brother told me once, “you’re in control of your emotions. people may do things to you, but its up to you to allow it to affect you.”
My issue: those who are close to me, triggers an emotional response from me very easily. And I take everything personal.
Yesterday afternoon was a wake call for me.
I decided to build up more walls.
People are always telling me to “talk to someone,” “don’t hold stuff in,” and yadda yadda yadda. My mindset: People only want to know something to tell someone else. They don’t really care about what you’re going through. They pretend that they do.
I know that things are going to affect me in some shape or form. But, the things that I can control, I’m going to control. Nobody should have the ability to make me feel worthless. I know that I’m talking a big game because who knows how I’m going to feel next week or tomorrow.
Anyways, my white flag is waving from my walls.