Not enough….

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and I know that I’m hard on myself. I’m really trying to do better with my life, but I’m struggling. Seems like I’m not doing anything right. Or I’m not doing enough. I can’t win for losing. I let a lot of things slide by, put up with […]

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I feel like a…failure.

I’m sitting here drinking my lukewarm coffee as I self-reflect. I started 2019 which such a positive high. Being realistic and honest with myself, setting goals, and finding ways to tame my inner turmoil and deep thoughts. I’ll admit, in the process of doing those things, a few things has slipped through the crack; but […]

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Emotionally Secured.

I accept myself for who I am, although I’m still trying to figure some parts of me out. Do you comprehend? Personality-wise, I accept myself for who I am. I can’t change myself and I will not do so for others. You see, I accept the fact that I am bluntly honest. I’m secure in […]

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I scream at the World….

I scream at the world because I’m often misunderstood. Like….countless of others. It’s not a battle of who has it worst. Because our storms differs. Yours may be physical whereas mine is mental. I scream at the world because….you see…grey clouds were created. By those I had trusted. Those that I had once loved. I […]

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Talking to myself.

Hi Self. I know that I haven’t been posting lately. Why not? Well, I’ve been busy. With what? Being a Mum, studying Korean, and battling my weird Idiopathic Angioedema. Idio-what? When you have swellings and they don’t know what caused it. Ah. Yea. This year is going to be our year. You say that every […]

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sigh….

Today was an attempt of a good day. The weather was nice. It felt like Fall….like…actual Fall season. I was smiling. Ate good food at the local Japanese restaurant, Sapporo, which was delicious. Spoke in Korean today. Talked to my best mate today. Cheered up a brah, a little bit. And then…. He just had to […]

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Fuzzy Mind

Sitting here with a migraine. My body hurts. I’m tired. Not in the sense of being sleepy. I tell myself that time is an illusion. That life has no clock, but that’s not true. I feel bound to the ground as everything age around me by the second. I drown myself in my hobbies, yet […]

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reINVENTING myself

For the last two weeks, things started to look up for me as I have been in a very rough patch. I understand that I must crawl before I run. I understand that I’m the only one who change…me. However, its so hard for me to do so. Even though there are some people who […]

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Given Up

[listening to: Linkin Park – Given Up] Yesterday, I had a moment. I feel that some of it has carried over today due to me still feeling slightly annoyed. I feel like…I’m two people. One side: Wears heart on her sleeves, content, caring, friendly, loyal, etc. Other side: chaotic, lost, can’t deal with emotions, and just […]

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